We're told that healing means becoming stronger, more resilient, more capable of holding the weight of the world without breaking.

We're told to "level up," to "do the work," to build ourselves into fortresses that can withstand any storm.

But that's not healing. That's armor.

True healing is the opposite.

There it is again. That feeling I thought I was over.

The sadness, the rage and anger, the confusion, the doubt. I thought I moved through those. I thought I figured that out. Why is it showing itself again?

I don't want to feel that, so I change the topic in my head. I focus on something else, something happening today. Coffee sounds nice, what's for breakfast…