When the Wound Returns: Understanding the Spiral of Healing

There it is again. That feeling I thought I was over.

The sadness, the rage and anger, the confusion, the doubt. I thought I moved through those. I thought I figured that out. Why is it showing itself again?

I don't want to feel that, so I change the topic in my head. I focus on something else, something happening today. Coffee sounds nice, what's for breakfast…

And there it is again. Damn.

My deep dive into healing and releasing the wounds, belief systems, and stories that kept me trapped in a reality I did not prefer began almost three years ago. It started as an outward journey—trying to understand why I had been married and divorced twice now, and still felt lost. I felt like I didn't understand how to live. How to do life.

I had been married, had the home and degree, now a little one, and yet life didn't feel like I thought it would. I didn't feel happy or whole.

I married hoping the feelings of worthiness and love would feel more complete. I married to show others I was okay on the outside, hoping that on the inside I would feel more complete. I saw being in a relationship and marriage as a way to heal a deep void I felt—unworthiness and a lack of love and security within. So I sought it on the outside, through men. I asked them to fill something I did not know how to fill or hold for myself.

The journey back to myself was a mix of books, therapy and life coaching, trying to get back in shape, meditating (sometimes three times a day), and plant medicines.

The biggest lessons I've learned:

• Healing is not linear, it's a spiral

• All the answers you seek are within you and not outside of you

• Healing isn't about being able to hold more in life; it's about being able to release what you've held so that your true light, brightness, and wholeness can shine through

• We exist as spirits in human form, we are extensions of God consciousness and therefore are worthy just by our existence

Over the next few posts, I'll be diving deep into each of these lessons—sharing the raw truth of what I've learned through my own journey of healing, twin flame connection, and remembering my divine nature.

Lesson One: Healing Is Not Linear, It's a Spiral

The ego wants healing to be a checklist. A straight line from broken to whole. From wounded to healed. From unconscious to awakened.

But that's not how consciousness works.

Healing moves in spirals—returning us to the same wound, the same pattern, the same ache, but each time from a higher vantage point. Each time with more awareness. Each time with more capacity to hold what we couldn't hold before.

When that feeling returns—the one you thought you "dealt with"—it's not regression. It's not failure. It's not proof that you're broken or that the work didn't matter.

It's the spiral bringing you back to collect another layer.

Think of it like this: You're climbing a mountain in circles. Each time you pass the north face, you see the same view—but you're higher now. You can see further. You understand more. What once felt like an insurmountable cliff now looks like a stepping stone.

The wound that returns isn't the same wound. You aren't the same person meeting it.

The first time, you might collapse into it, believing it's your identity.

The second time, you might fight it, trying to force it away with affirmations and spiritual bypassing.

The third time, you might observe it with curiosity: "Oh, hello again. What are you here to show me?"

And the fourth time? You might hold it with such tenderness that it dissolves in your presence—not because you pushed it away, but because you finally gave it permission to be seen, felt, and released.

This is the sacred spiral.

I've witnessed this pattern in my own journey again and again—the longing for my twin flame returning, the ache for validation resurfacing, the old stories whispering their familiar narratives. And each time, I didn't go backward. I went deeper. I peeled back another layer of the conditioning that said I needed someone outside myself to feel whole.

The spiral isn't punishment. It's refinement.

It's the universe saying: "You're ready for the next level. Let's go deeper."

So when the wound returns, don't shame yourself. Don't question your progress. Instead, place your hand on your heart and whisper: "Thank you for trusting me enough to show me what's ready to be released."

Because the spiral only brings you back to what you're finally strong enough to transform.

Lesson 2: The Mirror of Love: All the Answers You Seek Are Within You—>